storm contained, sunshine boxed, freedom shackled.

i've never asked if you loved me
but its always yes, yes and yes...
should i ask it of you someday
you'd say, 'baby, why ask when you know the answer? its yes, yes and yes...'

as i was approaching my birthday (which incidentally was on the 7th of this month.. ), i first had to deal with a yo-yo ride...

it started off end august, which was chris's birthday.... was happy for him and all, then it was tailo's birthday, was happy as well.... ok... this was the chronologial order of wut happenned to me since end of august 2010, then you tell me if it was a yo-yo week....

august 2010 - chris's birthday
3rd sept 2010 - merv's birthday
4th sept 2010 - news of the passing of james how on the 3rd sept 2010 (rip)
5th sept 2010 - news of the passing of robert lee on the 4th sept 2010 (rip)
6th sept 2010 - news of bernard's dad having a second heart attack (he's still in critical condition)
7th sept 2010 - i turned 37

lovely isnt it? before i can wrap my head around one death, another hits me in the face... in between all that was a whole lot of stress at work...

i had gone through the passing of many friends' fathers in these two years (chris, merv, penny, anna, my own uncle).... and all awful news that i had been getting is freaking me out on my own dad. *sigh* not a happy thought mind you... but it creeped up on me.... and so i had to deal with it... deal with it i did... i prayed that my dad lived forever, anyone but him... i remembered the guilt of those selfish thoughts...

not enough i had to deal with turning 37 (lolz....) i had to deal with deaths and family crisis (even if i was not personally involved)

on a happier note... i had two birthday cakes this year.... one from hippo tan and another one i shamed my boss into buying... *evil grin*, delicious japanese dinner with bobby, lovely shabu-shabu dinner with hippo, a yummy thai dinner with charmaine *still can't say that name without grinning*, and a wonderful day out with michelle (we had dinner at the loaf and she gave me benetint!)

this year, i got a new dress from mom, benetint from mitch, b'day cake from hippo, a bracelet from bernard, book vouchers from work, skincare from bobby and many many many many warm and lovely birthday wishes from a lot of people....

In the end... i've never gotten around to blogging my Bali trip... *sigh*

As we inch closer to our country's 53rd year of independence... one cant help but think... would this 1Malaysia idea work?

most of us would have wished fervently that i will... some of us would turn our noses up on it and continue on our way....

while the government has been promoting this 1Malaysia ideal positively, wut happens in the real world tells us otherwise...

lets face it... we're racists... whether we want it or not... no, its not one of those outright haters... but sometimes in our everyday life... like when you're driving and you meet this driver that drives in between two roads... you wouldnt go stupid driver... you'd go stupid (insert race denominations please)... right?

lolz... dun deny it.... we've all done it a few times in our lives... consiously or not.... you know, stuff like that...

i wont deny that i'm a racist... lolz... in fact i embrace it... and yet, i have friends in every race denomination... and i love all of them... so wut does that make me?

well, wutever it is... we as malaysian... or humans... will not hope for unrest... we all want peace on earth... right?

so as we approach our 53rd year... i really hope that we put aside our skin colour differences and work slowly but surely together and really make this 1Malaysia ideal a truth... hehehe.... i rather like the idea of that...

or, oh well... just give it a little thought eh? we all stand to gain from it...

yeah, yeah... i'll stop... hehehe...

anyways... happy birthday Malaysia!!

i actually started a new blob... but this time its a picture blog where i dump all my randomly shot photos.... check it out if you like....

http://wutisee.blogspot.com/

its a rather funny combination.... to have valentines day fall on the same day as the first day of chinese new year.... of course, strictly speaking the first day of chinese new year was the first day of spring... which was on the 4th Feb 2010 this year.... lolz...

then again, a few years ago valentines day fell on the same day of the 15th day of chinese new year which was chap goh mei, also a day of love for the chinese community....

but i digress... how does one go about celebrating these two events?

as for me... having given up on valentines day, its easy... lolz... i'd must rather hang out with family and friends for chinese new year... of course, the lure of angpows is much bigger than spending money on a gift... although i've pretty much spent quite a bit for cny... which i do every year anyways...

this year just gives me a more solid excuse for not spending anymore on a gift of love.... ahahaha... although i've already bought the gift... wut a hipocrite.... hehehe.... well, my excuse was to lump both ocassions into one gift... heehee....

then again, retailers will do anything to sell their products.... its interesting.....

so how do you go about joining these two events into one day? spend the day with your partner then dinner with family? or spend the day with family visiting, then a candlelit dinner with your other half? hmm..... how about just bringing her/him home to visit the parents? this will prolly seal the deal....

if you're planning to propose, that makes it easier doesnt it? ask her/him to marry you then proceed to have dinner with the family and then announcing the good news? how cool is that....

anyhow, i look forward to the rest of the year... will the cupid come roaring into the year riding on a tiger or will a handsome angle flutter in with a kitty in his arms.... i'm interested to see...

wut do you think?

on an ending note.... i'll have to make time to blog out my holiday to bali soon....